I want to change the title of this blog

Right now I think that "Life without Gabbi" would be a good title and I know that sometime I'll get over it or her loss but ADHD does make emotions much stronger.  That's one of the traits of ADHD I chose to like, heightened emotional sensitivity (yes Wendy, I can now cry with the best of them).  I am much more sensitive than a normal person which can be both good and bad.  Good cause I'm more in tune with others who hurt and need help, bad because that makes me an easier target for the bullies.  Fortunately for me, I have a pretty good sense of self and an accurate opinion of my strengths and weaknesses.  So no matter what bullies may throw at me, I'm pretty secure in who I am and get over it pretty quickly.  Most people would call it confidence.  I call it "Just Being Me."  I'm very grateful the Lord blessed me with it.

There was a great segment on the Dr. Oz show about females living with ADHD where Dr. Oz interviewed Dr. Ned Hallowell (one of my heroes) and another psychiatrist specializing in ADHD.  It focused on issues of moodiness, anxiety (Wendy, quit laughing, I can hear you all the way over here, jeeeesh!), and fatigue.  I highly recommend you google Dr. Hallowell and look for it on his website or facebook page and watch it.

Gabbi helped me with ADHD.  She kept me calm.  She was also the best headache medicine in the world.  Just stick your head into her side and somehow the headache disappears.  I miss those things a lot.  I have no one to rub my head into when it hurts.  I have no one to scratch behind the ears.  Losing her has increased my day to day loneliness.  I know I have a husband and he dispels some of the loneliness but not all.  I know I have activities here in Carlock but those are only 3 or 4 days a month.  Hopefully after the holidays, I'll get off this train and get my Life coaching business going.  I need something, some reason to get out of the house each day.  I'm in a quagmire of inertia and need to break free.  Hopefully the world won't end by the time January comes around.  

Anyway, I AM grateful for all the kind thoughts some of you have sent me about my last posts and that's encouraged me to try to be more faithful to this exercise of self discovery so thank you for lighting a fire under my gluteous maximus.  It's nice to know there are people out there who read this from time to time.  Makes the loneliness not so lonely.

Thanks,

Jan

Today I am grateful for:

1.  Readers

2. Memories of Gabbi

3. My Husband

4. The Vet who so kindly helped Gabbi go to heaven.  BTW Her name is Dr. Kilby, am I the only one who finds that hysterically appropriate?

5. My friends who let me be uniquely me and don't try to change me.

Plus the normal things of life I'm grateful for...especially God's miraculous provision.